You know, I thought it would be easy to stay away from you. I thought it would be easy to forget you, to find someone else, to keep my mind busy in any other way. I just thought it would be easy.
But it sounds pretty wrong to me. It' is impossible to me to keep an eye on you while breaking away.
I need to talk to you. I need to see you, to notice you smile as I say silly things, to discuss the hunger of the world, to eat a mac meal along some road darkened by the night, with you. I need to. I really need to. I swear, I feel weak, fake, unarmed as you're not by my side. I need you. I'm bored of life. I'm tired of people. I'm fed up with uni. I'm sick of drunkenness. There's nothing I want to stand up for now. There's nothing that makes me bounce, laugh, speak, sing. Nothing, or rather no one.
This earth may be overpopulated and yet, among my however-many-friends l've got, there's no one that makes me feel the way you do. No one can restore me, charge me with electricity the way you do.
I feel free. I am free.
I'm free to deliver a speech about philosophy, I'm free to mock anyone I meet, I'm free to complain, to sing naked or whatever I feel like doing. But what is freedom when you haven't got the one you wish you could experience and share it with ? It's nothing. Nothing but boredom. Nothing but sadness. Nothing but a grey sky.
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